Ugh!

I love to read blogs, love love love!  That is why I wanted to start one.  I just don't know why I can't keep it up.  To catch of from my last post, I never did the stupid competition.  It just never came together for me.  Where am I at now?  Fitness wise, I have back pedaled so far back it is no even funny!  I honestly don't know why, regardless of why I am commiting myself to buckling down this month and getting back into shape.  I am following the plan in J.ackie War.ners new book.  I am so excited to start seeing results and feeling good about myself again!

Kid wise, they are doing so great.  Kellen is almost ten and in fourth grade and playing basketball right now.  Kendall is 7 and also playing basketball.  It is the cutest thing to see a bunch of first grade girls try and make hoops on a ten foot hoop.  She really does well though.

Dog wise, Asia is now over a year old and we have gotten a "sister" for her.  She will be about 25 pounds full grown.  She is a mutt of pitbull, pug and boston terrier.  Other than the potty training thing, things are going great with both dogs.  They love each other and play with each other, so cute!  Her name is India, Indy for short.

Job wise, I have left my postition as a supervisor in retail and am now a teller at a credit union.  So far I love it!  It is so not stressful and the people I work with are awesome!

I am hoping to keep this blog up so I can get more readers, but I have said that so many times in the past!

Here We Go Again

So, today was my first "official" day of training for my new competition in September.  At this point I believe I am about nine or ten weeks out.  This should be very interesting.  I am not using a trainer, I am taking what my trainer gave me last time and rolling with it.  I have also added a few supplements to my diet.  I am also considering addin in some refeed days.  If anyone has done this during training please let me know how it has worked for you.  I am excited to see what a difference those will make.  I am going to have to be very strict with my diet from here on out as I have gained a considerable bit of body fat since my last competition.  I weighed myself this afternoon and I was at 119, which in itself is not a bad weight to be at.  But considering I was 104 at my last competition I have some work to do.  I do not want to be a 104 this time because I think it was too skinny.  But I don't want to be too far from it.  I am hoping to keep this blog up with my progress because it will help me stay accountable.  So far today, my diet has been to the tee.  I know as time goes by this is going to be much harder so I will just take it day by day and hope for the best.

I Did It!

I am very proud to say that I did my competition and it felt great!  It was a very long day.  It started at around 5:45 am.  I woke up early and was way too nervous to eat, so I just showered and grabbed some coffee and snacks and took off around 6:20.  I met my sister (who is the best hairdresser) and friend Kandie (who is the best makeup artist EVER!) at my sisters house to get dolled up.  By the time they were done with me, I looked down right HOT!  Sorry to sound concieted, but I truly felt like a different woman.  The day from there felt pretty much like hurry up and wait.  I had to go straight to the competition for a meeting at 8:30.  Prejudging was supposed to start at 9 but it was more like 9:30.  My division didn't even go on stage until around noon.  I was so nervous backstage.  I just kept practicing my poses and touching up my makeup.  When it was our turn, all the ladies in my class went out in a line, there were thirteen of us.  We split into two lines and they called us up in groups of about four.  We struck our poses next to each other and walked to the back and front, strutting our stuff!  Again, I was SO nervous.  I tried really hard not to show it and just act like I was the best.  It felt great though!  When that was over I was free to leave until the night show started.  So I came home, and took a nap and just chilled out and ate a little bit.  Then me, my husband and my friend went back around six when the night show started.  At prejudging they have already made up their minds so the night show is all for fun.  I went backstage at around 7:30 to get prepped, but didn't end up going on stage at around 11.  It was rough.  I was so tired, hungry and thirsty.  By the time we got on stage, we just all wanted it to be over with.  At the night show, they call you on stage individually and then you line up with your class and do your poses and walk and strut your stuff.  You all file off stage and the top five are called back out.  I thought I was going to be disappointed if I wasn't in the top five, but it didn't bother me at all.  When we got the score sheets I saw that I came in 8th of 13 ladies.  It actually made me feel great!  I think I was the only thirty something out there with all twenty somethings!  I can't believe it!  I am thinking I will do another show this year.  Haven't decided which one, but definitely gonna do another!

The girl on my right won this class.

Asia

So, in December we got a puppy.  In case you haven't guessed it, we called her Asia.  Not only am I not a dog person (I have been afraid of them ever since I was a kid), I am not a Doberman person.  It was always the fear of the unknown.  You see, I hate to not be in control.  Dogs are so unpredictable, you never know if or when they will bite you.  My husband has always wanted a Doberman and I always said no because growing up the Dobermans in the neighborhood had a horrible reputation, they always barked and you never quite knew if the rumors of them biting neighborhood kids were true or not.  Well, whatever I thought about Dobermans were not true.  At least not in Asias case, she is a very cuddly, sweet puppy.  I have never had a puppy so I didn't know quite what to expect.  Once we got past her getting up every two hours to pee every night, we have really enjoyed her.  I love to see the kids with her, she just loves them.  I am so glad that they will have a dog to grow up with.  So, here are some pictures of beautiful Asia:

I am so bad at keeping this up

I don't know why I can't keep this blog up.  I love to write, and I love to spew out things I am feeling.  Right now I am feeling like the next two weeks are only going to crawl.  You see, I have entered a bodybuilding competition in the bikini division.  I am not sure what I was thinking...I am excited, yet so scared to show the world my "mom" body.  I just have to go back to the reason I wanted to do it in the first place.  I know I am a strong person, and I want to do it for myself.  I did not anticipate how hard the last month of training would be.  Very low in carbs and eating the same thing day after day after day.  Oh and did I mention that I work out six days a week, sometimes at 5 in the morning.  The changes I see in my body are exciting!  The competition is two weeks from today and I find myself with a mix of emotions.  Excited, scared, nervous, and happy all at the same time.  After the competition I go to my parents house for a few days for spring vacation.  I am going to be so ready!!

Getting There

So this business venture is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I love it because it is what I am very passionate about right now. It is hard to get people to see that this is worth spending money on. I just can't believe the amount of money people will spend on purses, makeup, clothes, cigarettes, and other unhealthy things but when it comes to getting healthy and taking quality supplements they look at me like I have two heads and tell me how expensive the products are. I get it, the products are on the highest end of quality so they will cost more. Just like a woman will spend 300$ on a Coach purse (not that I am putting down people who own a Coach purse because I do own one) will justify spending that money (just like I did) because of the quality. Same thing here, except it is your health and wellness which I value a whole lot more than the object that holds my keys and wallet. I introduced the product to a friend of mine recently and she loved it but said her husband wouldn't let her order it because it has a small amount of artificial sweetners in it, and said it to me right before she went to have a cigarette...huh? Anyway, I will just keep plugging away because I believe in the product and I believe in the company!

I Feel Awesome!

I have closed the last three nights at work, whick means I haven't gotten to bed before one o clock in the morning. I don't do well with less than eight hours of sleep and even then closing takes a toll on my body after doing it so many days in a row. So last night, again, I got to sleep at about 1 or so and was up at about 8. I was so tired but decided that the only think that would help me was a trip to the gym. I downed a Slam and went to a spin class. I tell you, I felt like I could exercise for hours. It makes me feel so good mentally and physically. If you have a hard time making it to the gym after a late night, I recommend a Slam. Even if you got a great nights rest, it just gives you the energy you need to get through your work out at a great intensity! It does have caffeine in it, but also some very good vitamins that give you that mental boost!